Ohhh my goodness friends and family where do i begin!! So this is my third transfer in the field and guess what??? I'M TRAINING!!! What in the world is Heavenly Father thinking putting me in the position. I don't think i have ever questioned Him before but this has got to be some kind of mistake. I have no idea what I'm doing and I'm suppose to teach someone else?? What is going on?? lol Ok so maybe it's not that bad but guys here's the truth this is a really challenging calling. I was so scared, president called me the day of transfers at 7:30 in the morning and told me "the Lord put it in his heart to call me as a trainer." I couldn't believe it. I was soo nervous, taking over my area and i don't know much. Everything took me back to my farewell talk when I quoted Harold B. Lee "Whom God calls He qualifies." I want to be honest I have never been more scared in my life. I felt (and still feel) so inadequate, incompetent, small, unprepared etc when he called me to be a trainer. This is the Lord's work i didn't want anything to stop the progression of it. Then I read my Patriarchal Blessing and it says "You will be able to lead in leadership roles. You will be able to teach these brothers and sisters that you will be called to work with the things they need to know." Way to wake me up, huh. I have truly learned a valuable lesson in this past week and that is to "trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths." Guys, I want to semi-quote Bishop Seegmiller here for a minute and let you all know that i did NOT get called to be a trainer because I'm some GREAT missionary, but because I probably need the most work to improve myself. I took my trainer for granted a lot and I can see that now. She taught me a lot she truly was/is great!! Now I'm on my own teaching someone straight from the MTC, the same place i was 3 months ago. I pray so hard that I will teach her what she needs to know so she too can love the people and teach them by the Spirit of the Lord that is going to guide and direct her path. I want you all to know that I love this work and although this is now the toughest time I've had so far I would change it for the world. I have become a strong believer of sacrifice brings forth blessings. I have yet to have a baptism but my success isn't measured in that. What's amazing is how converted I'm becoming from all the experiences that I have. Don't get me wrong I didn't come on a mission to serve myself but anyone who has served knows you go out to serve the people but you learn a lot more than you probably will ever teach them. WE'LL YOU'S GUYS (I mean i am in MD) Until next time, I LOVE YOU ALL. DON'T FORGET TO WRITE ME!!!!!!!!