Ok so i feel ever so compelled to share this story! It really meant a lot to me and it was just a huge eye opener. I tried to send it last week but the computer crashed... (LAME) so anyways here it goes.... (ps im changing the member's name) A few weeks ago i was struggling with something (internally), when finally I just got frustrated and asked God "Why am i even here?? I can't do this one thing right (which is pretty important) and if it continues it just going to cause me to be disobedient, so seriously why am i here??" I had been struggling with this since I hit the mission field and finally it just began to weigh me down immensely and i couldnt take it. In the area that im in now we have to be EXACTLY OBEDIENT if we want to see the results of the hard work that we are doing. Plus we need the spirit to be able to be with us at all times so that comes from obedience and ughhh.... i was just hurting inside ok. So anyways later on that day my companion and i decided to visit a less active member of the ward, which is what we do A LOT of actually through out the week, strengthening members and such and we went and he wasnt home so we decided to knock his street, we did no success by this time i was just even more stressed but just pretending as if i wasnt. And my companion looks over and says look we have two options we can go and visit two more less active members or some really active members that live not too far from here. Soo i say ok and i hear something tell me go cheer up the active member, so im like "ok." So i tell my comp lets go cheer up Sister Peterson. I had no idea why i siad that but i did. (keep in mind i dont know any of the ward really) And normally 9 times out of 10 my answer is less actives. so to make a long story short we went and when we were praying outside before we went in i said again Lord please help us cheer up sister peterson. When we got to the door her husband (the former bishop, yeaaa told you they were wayy active) answered the door and invited us in. We stood there talking to him for about 2 minutes when we heard a voice from upstairs say "tell them to come up" We went upstairs and sister Peterson waslaying in bed and informed us that she had just gotten out of surgery two days prior to and was really feeling down. she said 2 minutes before we walked in she got a call from her son and told him "i just hope and pray someone will come and visit me. i just really need someone" and then the doorbell rang and her son said "wow God works fast for you doesnt He?" She cried and we cried and it was truly a testimony builder of just following the Spirit. We read some amazing scriptures and had an awesome lesson shared testimonies and stories and laughed and cried some more. Guys, on our way there we had no idea why we were led there but we were. I put all my selfish thoughts and struggles behind and just listened to the Spirit. The Lord ever so gently let me know that everything i do is a process. And growth will come. Just continue the work and He will continue to help and guide me. How blessed am I to be set be straight by the Lord Almighty. Theres no one else better to do the job. I love this work and all the challenges that come with it. I love the growth and testimony that im gaining of my Savior and His Father and the Spirit its AMAZING... UNTIL NEXT TIME I LOVE YOU ALL AND KEEP THE LETTERS COMING!!!!